Tonight I sit and really wonder how to forgive someone who time and time again makes me so angry?!
There was a spat happening on a group text that I'm apart of. Someone was offended because none of us responding within seconds of her posting some pictures. She felt as though we did not love her. The whole thing got way out of control and people were being so harsh when all the group text is suppose to do is bring people closer together by staying in contact with each other. I wish I could say that I was one of the peacemakers of the group, but I wasn't. I was pretty darn upset over comments that were made. So mad that I was shaking.
People have apologized and things are moving forward again, but I'm struggling. How do I truly forgive this person who time and time again does stuff like this? I want to forgive them and I want to move forward in life, but I have such a deep wedge in my heart that I'm struggling so bad. I literally get sick to my stomach and start throwing up because the feelings are so deep now. The part that is the hardest is the guilt because I know that I can't feel this way. I have got to forgive and move on because I'm only hurting myself through all of this. While I was rocking Hope to sleep tonight I just cried out to my Heavenly Father for help. I felt a good load of the burden lift, but now that I'm not in prayer, I'm hurting and aching again.
Please, if anyone has any good ideas please help me!!!
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